sesuatu seperti riwayat
makan makanan yang dibakar, mi instan, it really matters in the incident of
nasopharingeal carcinoma. dan pasiennya ternyata banyak, i mean, kejadian
kanker nasofaring itu banyak dan mostly datang udah stadium lanjut. so guys,
please eat wisely.
mastoiditis
you think you see a hole behind the ear?yes. and what is inside? dirt.
a-17-years-neglected-dirts which inflamated the whole ears. so yeah, jangan
main-main sama kotoran telinga.
corpus alienum
ternyata, kasus seperti
ini ada beneran. akhirnya ada yang lebih susah dari nyari jarum dalam tumpukan
jerami, nyari koin di tenggorokan. not as easy as it seems. we dont openly
slice your neck which is more riskful, we just try to put out the coin with
some equipments, berpatokan foto thorax gitu doang.
adek-adek, jangan iseng
ya masukin apapun ke mulut selain makanan.
jangan masukin apapun ke
hidung sama telinga.
dosen saya bilang beliau
milih jadi spesialis tht karena di tht itu, ilmu teorinya ada, tindakan pun
ada, imbang. misal kalau bedah atau obsgin lebih ke tindakan, sementara interna
lebih ke teori. saya seperti, wah, what about me? saya pikir saya nggak
jago-jago amat teori dan im absolutely not a practical addict, yeah. mungkin,
saya cuma penganut "what ever you are, (im trying to) be a good one.
dont be case-oriented, jadi koas yang selow selow aja yang penting jalan
teruus
hot potato voice - face illustration
waktu suaramu terdengar seperti lagi makan kentang kepanasan
after a mood and personal disorder, now i think i'm sick. sleepy sick. it gets worse since 12th grade
penyakit tidur, seriously. kalau serangan kantuknya datang, nggak tertahankan banget, saya bisa nutup mata, tidur. susah banget mempertahankan mata tetep terbuka. tapi setelah tertidur beberapa saat itu ya sudah, rasa kantuknya bisa hilang seketika.
celakanya kantuknya sering datang saat kuliah, tentiran, dsb jadi kan rugi nggak dapet ilmu *ehm. nggak pernah nggak tidur saat kuliah :( jadi sering dibilang parahh
any explanations or medications for this??
-kayaknya saya kualat sama temen saya, saya pernah curiga dia punya sleep disorder karena dia sering telat pssst .__.
jadi siang itu di pintu masuk salah satu sisi rumah sakit, ada pengunjung yang nggak dibolehkan masuk sama satpam karena bukan jam kunjung
lalu ada orang berwajah penuh coretan kapur putih dibiarkan masuk begitu saja sama satpam
later i know, itu adalah pasien yang mau radioterapi area kepala leher. coretan-coretan itu buat menandai daerah target radioterapi.
kami lewat sambil senyum senyum. i even make a joke of this,
"jadi kalau kamu pengunjung biar dibolehkan masuk RS saat bukan jam kunjung, coret-coret aja muka pakai kapur biar dikira pasien radioterapi"
oops. hehehe
He is the most recognize-able member because he is
very oriental and he has single eyelid
He is the oldest hyung but is the cutest one when
doing aegyo
He is like a cute sculpture in front of camera kekeke
silence and stay cute but i feel charm there
He is going to be your charming boyfriend with his charming
voice and hug-able arms you want to hang on all day and he looks best sleeveles
amongs other
Oh Sehun 오세훈– the
it boy at school
The evil maknae and why do all maknae are these
gorgeous?
He is the person who can change his hair style and
color every minute without even looking bad seriously who has dyed his hair
rainbow?
He looks cool but actually he is the brain of every
evil job to his hyungs yet has a lot of aegyos
His few words and cool face make him obviously have the
title of the ‘it’ boy that you can easily fall in love with
He is the second dancer in k after kai never heard his
voice in singing hahaha
Luhan 鹿晗– pretty
The main vocalist in m after chen and also the visual
of course since he is so pretty omg
even prettier than his fan girls omoo luckily he is
good at sport or he is going to fit a girl character with taking selfie as his
hobby and he is an ulzzang before debut
personality pretty much like kai i just love him being
generous and not acting like want more attention
one thing i got from
him is his face can be so silly when he sings in high notes
Kim Jun Myeon aka Suho 김준면 – puppy
I dont know why i
call him puppy maybe because he is bully-able
he is the leader and
the oldest member in k but other members like to tease and bully him ignore him
when he talks and laugh crispily to his jokes
The cheesiest member
maybe because he is in charge of every speech
He is a good leader
he takes care members like he is the one hands over his credit card easily to
buy food for all member *the rich junmen*
Sometimes he looks
like siwon suju but he is a typical korean male face i think
He is a bit sensitive
like tao but why do i think his character is less ‘stand out’ than other
members
Zhang Yixing aka Lay 张艺兴– calming candle
He is a chinese that
is why he rarely speak in korean show but quite talkative in chinese show
his light is so soft
calm and gloomy that he is often being forgotten
remember when he
played guitar with yeol he kept playing a gloomy melody while yeol unpatiently
played hardcore song
but he is very
talented he learned to play musical instrument from piano to guitar by him self
quite good at singing
too
Kim Jongdae aka Chen 김종대
– mister mister
I dont know why i
give him that name maybe i just confused i have no idea
He is the main main vocalist
he is baek’s rival
If baek and kyungsoo
is middle to low tone then jong dae is middle to high oh yes he can reach
higher to extremely low notes i’m impressed
But i like baek’s
more jong dae’s is little bit cempreng kekekeke
he is noisy too but
sometimes seems like wanting more attention and i think he is a competitive
person
but he is baek’s
friend since they did audition together and he is the second suho in taking
care of other members. Nice
this is me speaking as a girl. call me typical but you must receive it girls basically love flower boys
please dont underestimate them for you have no idea what kind of magic they make to me
please dont judge them just because they put make up on their face and though they dont, still they even look prettier than you
we should see them on how their voices are kind of healing agent for a burdened heart like mine
how their laugh turns into friends for a depressed soul like mine
and how their fool even be the reason why I wanna wake up the next day
call me cheesy but this is just me being in love
beside, I fall in love with them at the first words they whispered to me, their song.
you should have at least one, bias. in case you're dead they can be the light to get you home
here they are, 12 biji timun kesayangan. I will put each one word/phrase to describe them
Byun Baek Hyun변백현 - magic he's the main vocalist of exo-K. i ran out of words to describe him you know how i can fall in love with certain voice ya? so this is him his voice is..magic but there is something else. dia ini sentiyeng, tengil, criwis, polah, suka jahilin orang, suka ngeledek ( sorry I can't fine proper english words to describe these kekekeke) he's crazy and annoyingly cute no one wants to be his roommate because he's very noisy when he goes to sleep but I'm sure he is the most miss-able person among the other membersI love how he imitates tao's Chinese accent in speaking Korean and I love how he teases kyungsoo's scary eyes he's in charge of wearing catchy eyeliner on the stage because his eyes are pretty small eyeliner makes him look more sharpy and sexy unfortunately he rarely uses that nowadays he's just lovable he's the soul of the party the combination of all makes him magical I can fall in love with him everyday
Do Kyungsoo aka D.O 도경수 - enticing
main vocalist in exo-k after baek he's baek victim in teasing things because he used to be the quite ones in public but they are so cute being in a little fight like that
that is something in this kid which is so mysterious but.. very interesting like how he could go watching movie in the cinema alone while other members go hanging out together
his eyes are so sharp and deep but he has a beautiful smile since he has a heart-shaped lips so it seems like he gives you heart by just smiling or laughing
he's in charge of cooking and his English is so much better than others
he's like the cool guy in school you're curious about and suddenly you just realize you fall in love with him and you're trapped
and this is when they...
listening baek and kyungsoo's voices is like making a choice between jun pyo and ji hoo in boys before flower drama
i got a different feeling they are lovable in their own ways
baek is like jun pyo with all his straight passion and flirty voice it makes me madly fall in love
it really seducing i cant stand his high notes when his voice becomes so deep and thick and its vibrate vibrating every inch of my weak heart valves
then kyungsoo is like ji hoo with his soft and lovely big voice like honey makes me desperately fall in to his arms
he destined to sing ballad he makes the song so deep and emotional
he always sing with his heart slicing every piece of my tiny heart
if baek's voice is the bad guy, then kyungsoo's is the lovely guy
Park Chanyeol 박찬열 - summer-spring-like
he's bright and warm at the same time he's like the sun in summer and cherry blossom in spring
he has a warm friendly and cheery smile you can fall in love with
I think he will be a very fun and nice boyfriend
he's baek's roommate and partner in crime together they can crash your world and make you mad in great laugh
if Baek is in charge of crazy comments yeol is in charge of fun and silly games
he's the main rapper his voice is very deep and gentle
I love it when he plays guitar and start to sing for me :*
Kim Jongin aka Kai 김종인 - sexy
he's the main dancer and also the visual and no doubt he's in charge of sexiness
his smile is sexy his curve is sexy his move is sexy his voice is sexy and his lips is sexy
he know what he's doing he gets the feel in every moves of his dance and his expression is strong and..sexy
when he talks he sounds like a pamper boyfriend who wants to cuddle with you and you cant say no
firstly I think he's nothing but an overrated visual now I know what people see in him
he's type of a cool guy with few words and lots of move
he is my ultimate bias wrecker damn!
Wu Yi Fan aka Kris 吴亦凡 - handsome
leader of exo-m he's the most handsome one I think and the tallest
he tries to act cool but end up doing silly moves that make him so funny seriously
he's obsessed with galaxy thats why he named his instagram galaxy_fanfan make me spent that whole day laughing
his gesture often seems like he doesnt mean to be a member of a boyband but he likes taking selfie omg
he's not quite good in singing but he's the rapper
he's Chinese but lived in Canada thats why he's able to speak in three different languages
I like him because he is so silly kekekeke
Huang Zhi Tao 黄子韬 - silly KID
another Chinese member and maknae in exo-m
one time he is a manly guy with his ability in doing martial arts next time he is a cutie child who runs happily towards a circling carousel and a beautiful rooftop scenery
next time again he is a silly kid who makes a silly move and makes a sound like a baby when he wants something, cries on a sad movie and screams his head off in a haunted house
you can read his mood since it obviously written on his face
he gets mad easily but i think he's a kind and warm guy to make friends with
I told you, timun itu sesuatu
mungkin,
bukan tanpa alasan beki nggak suka timun. bukan kebetulan saya sensitif sama timun. bukan kebetulan saya memilih beki jadi bias diantara 12 biji timun yang ada. we are destined to meet someday somewhere?
bantu di aamiin in aja deh :)))
di atas atap bangunan sehabis hujan, 2 ekor burung melangkah tertatih-tatih seperti main kejar-kejaran. sekali waktu mereka terbang ke dahan pohon sebelah, kembali lagi ke atap gedung, bermain di genangan air.
saya, dari jendela gedung seberang,
"mungkin enak ya jadi mereka, nggak perlu mikir kasus besar, kasus dua mingguan, laporan jaga, kunjungan rumah, dan..koas."
saya kira kalau ditanya, bagian mana dari koas yang paling berat dijalani? sebagian koas akan menjawab, "jaga". termasuk saya.
Tapi,
saya nggak akan tahu rasanya seorang ibu yang sudah habis air matanya menunggui anaknya yang kena dengue syok sindrome dan sewaktu-waktu bisa dipanggil Allah kalau saya nggak disuruh residen bolak-balik lantai 1 lantai 2 buat ngecek tanda vital sang anak tiap 15 menit, sepanjang malam jaga.
saya nggak akan tahu kalau ada ibu yang setiap hari membunyikan ayat-ayat alQuran di dekat sang anak yang sedang menggigil, kaku, nggak bisa bergerak karena meningitis kalau pagi itu saya nggak berangkat ke rumah sakit pakai jas hujan selagi orang rumah masih terlelap.
saya nggak akan tahu betapa kematian sungguh dekat dengan manusia kalau malam itu saya nggak nangis di atas motor menerjang hujan deras dalam perjalanan ke kariadi buat jaga malam.
anak itu masih belasan tahun, punya ALL ( Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia), leukositosis, kejang gelisah meregang nyawa di ruang PICU. maaf ya dek, saya cuma bantu doa dan bawakan penurun panas buatmu waktu itu. harapan saya kalau panasmu turun kejang dan gelisah mu bisa hilang dan kamu bisa tidur nyenyak. tapi ternyata Allah menghendakimu tidur di sisiNya, malam itu juga. Innalillahi wainna ilaihi roji'un.
saya nggak akan tahu rasa sedihnya mendoakan seorang anak TK yang lagi kritis, nggak sadarkan diri karena penyakit jantung dan tersedak biji salak kalau saat itu saya nggak bagging berdiri sampai 2 jam. sembuh ya nak, kasihan orang tuamu pengen lihat kamu jadi juara kelas di sekolah, saya berbisik. sampai beberapa hari kemudian saya dapat kabar anak itu meninggal. innalillahi wainnailaihi roji'un. maaf ya nak, saya cuma bisa bantu doa waktu itu..
saya nggak akan tahu bahwa seorang bayi itu lahir tanpa dosa kalau saya nggak harus terbangun dini hari dan tidur terduduk kedinginan di IGD. Bayi itu datang sekitar jam 2 pagi, dibawa mas perawat sambil berlari, plasenta masih menggantung, darah menetes netes di lantai IGD. setelah saya dekati ternyata banyak debu di badannya yang masih lengket, dan ada memar. baru kemudian saya tahu, dia ditemukan orang di pinggiran jalan di dekat ibunya yang masih lemas. baru kemudian saya tahu juga, si ibu seperti orang tunawisma,
berantakan, dan nggak tahu siapa ayah bayinya. Alhamdulillah si adek bayi sehat, gemuk, nggak cacat, cakep lagi. Allah Maha Baik ya.
seorang bapak-bapak datang berlari ke IGD dengan muka panik, menggendong bayinya laki-laki usia 8 bulan. demam 5 hari. dengan bintik bintik merah di sekujur tubuhnya. ibunya pingsan. si adek bungsu dari 3 bersaudara. kakak pertamanya masuk rumah sakit karena DSS bersamaan dengan kakak keduanya yang perempuan. kakak keduanya meninggal karena DSS tak terkompensasi. kakak pertamanya, anak yang saya cek tanda vitalnya tiap 15 menit, malam kemarin. saya nggak bisa bayangkan kalau saya jadi si bapak.
jangan pernah sekali-kali mulai sesuatu dengan prasangka, apalagi ketakutan. saya pernah dengar, prasangka Allah adalah prasangka hambaNya.
saya lihat sendiri bahkan di tengah kesusahan orang masih bisa menemukan alasan untuk bersyukur sama Allah. 2 anak itu laki-laki dan perempuan berlarian di koridor rumah sakit tertawa gembira, bermain staples dan pelubang kertas di ruang perawat. mana orang tahu kalau mereka sama-sama punya Thalassemia, mana orang tahu kalau tiap bulan mereka harus ke rumah sakit, harus menangis ditusuk jarum infus untuk transfusi darah.
"Bu, sisirnya mana aku mau sisiran." anak itu perempuan 8 tahun sedang kontrol di poli, ditanya residen "lho ada siapa yang ganteng kok tiba-tiba mau dandan" dan si anak sambil tersenyum malu melirik ke orang berjas putih lengan pendek.."oalaah pak dokter ituu"
wah dek, kita kok sehati
bisa juga ya ketemu anak perempuan yang mewek waktu mau diinfus bilang enggak mau diinfus tapi kemudian, "adek mau plesternya yang gambar barbie"
sesederhana itu ya dek hidupmu, kakak juga mau.
alhamdulillah, semoga. 2 bulan saya nangis nggak sia-sia, saya stress nggak sia-sia. Terima kasih stase anak :)
